Friday, July 30, 2010

Because they come and they go. Noone ever lasts around long.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Tomorrow, girl

about time i take their advice, my advice doesn't seem to be working

Just another human being

At first I wanted to feel physical pain because of the hurt i experienced this week, but now, seeing as it is tomorrow i'm actually quite anxious.

"The biggest example that I want to set for people is to dare to be different. Don’t be afraid to be yourself just because you’re not like everybody else in class. If you want to dye your hair green and that’s what make you happy, then dye your hair green — no matter what other people might say about it. Not everybody is going to like you — that’s the world we live in; that’s reality. So when you’re 50 years old and you looked back on your life, you want to know that you lived it for you not for other people."

Monday, July 26, 2010

Balenciaga Resort 2011 Collection

I love the feel of the 60’s and the way they look like martians/stepford wives.


Saturday, July 24, 2010

I just want to be happy

Identity crisis at 17 ? I've been struggling to come to terms with who've I become but there;s this voice constantly telling me'this is not you, this is not you'. So, I have a plea for the old me, please please come back wherever you are. I just want to be happy, again.

I miss being me.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Study plan for this weekend:

- plan the write-up for psych sac + notes (Mon)

- methods probability revision(exercise+chapter review) for sac (next Mon)

- do further linear programming exercises + linear relation chapter review (soon as possible)


- Do food write-up for Pizza Margherita + summarise chapters and exercise q's + go to stores and buy 4 JARS for relish,jam,chutney,sauce (Mon)

- english persuasive sac (Tues)

Sure not looking forward to nextweek or the next after that and that and that and that and that and THAT.
I am so glad this week is o v e r. Just a post expressing my love for Fridays thats all.

My emotions in pictures.

“Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.”—“So what?”—“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.”—“What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.”—“Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want? What do you want?”
—The Notebook (2004)
One of the best quotes of love.

Brave- Leona Lewis

She slapped her right cheek swiftly and in that moment all she could feel was a burning sensation, something she would have felt if she'd been speaking publicly for an audience of 100 people. She was filled with rage, rage was all she felt for those quick 3 seconds, she wanted to unleash her feelings, her emotions through the act of violence, through anti-social behaviour and she didn't want to cry, infact that was the last thing she wished to do, so she lifted all her emotions up and threw it. From the outside she looks insecure and shaky but secretly she's learning to be fierce.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

She had enough of it

Crying is the result of hidden feelings suppressed for a long time. Unspoken feelings. It releases your emotions yet open painful wounds for others to see.
"Invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away. Just let it out, my friend"
Terri Guillemets

Sunday, July 18, 2010

The heart's viriginity

"Everyone is looking out for the "big nasty" and attempting to avoid the act of sex at all costs. You have to realise that purity is not only about external actions; it is not just about heavy petting or a date gone too far. Purity is about the heart. We learn from the life of Samson that it is possible to compromise your purity without so much as touching anothe person. You can pollute your heart in a pretty clean setting or a seemingly sanctified atmosphere. As a pastor, my primary concern is not whether you lift your hands during worship and take notes from the sermon. I'm not going to inspect your hands to see if they are clean. I want to be sure that you have a pure heart."
Guard your heart. (Extract from Dating Delilah Judah Smith pg 136)

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Just get back up again

So often we compare others to ourselves and assume that they have so much more going for them(or so it appears). It is then, we start abusing and degrading ourselves. But I want to say, it's okay. It's okay if you don't have so many friends or only have 134 friends on Facebook. It's okay if you feel lonely sometimes. It's okay if you fall. It's okay if people hate you. It's okay if people judge you. It's okay if you're different or weird or whatever. The world doesn't need another person who is constantly obsessing about what other people think about them. The world moves forward when we all see the bigger picture.

It's okay, Anne.

hahahh funny. I like them both

The past remains in the past

For so many of us the past is an everest to climb over.

Hall and Oats.

You make my dreams come true <3
This song wakes up dead spirits.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Three's a crowd.

For the three of us, it's not the same anymore "and I wonder where the friendship went. What about the days and the memories we spent? Now it feels like I’m being replaced. Now it feels like I don’t know you." :(

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Edward Scissorhands feeling

Don't worry I don't bite,those were the words echoed in my head this morning. I wished he took a step back and really consider what he'd said, I wished he took back his ignorance, his pride, then maybe i wouldn't be sitting here blogging about him and doubting my sense of belonging. But things always occur the way you don't wish it to be.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Plumb- Here with me

In my head I have dreams
I have visions of many thing
Questions longings in my mind

Pictures fill my head
I feel so trapped instead but
Trapped doesn't seem so bad
'Cause You are here

It doesn't mean anything
Without You here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need You here with me

In my heart I had hope
Built on dreams I'll never know
Answers to love behind

Visions filled my head

I felt so trapped instead but
Trapped doesn't seem so bad
'Cause you were near

I can't do anything without You
You give me strength to do anything
I can't be everything I try to
You saved me from the everything
I couldn't be

It doesn't mean anything
Without You here with me
'Cause after all is said and done
I still need You here with me

Need You here with me
I need You here with me

This is so amazingly, freakingly BEAUTIFUL!!!!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Stop running, please.

He's a heavy alcholic and stirs strife among his brothers and sisters but I think it goes deeper than that...

One thing I know, he's now the outcast.

so. school's back. yup, school. I'm not going to rant of how I have to work harder this semester because this time i'm going to let my actions speak louder than words. I'll finish off with this quote, "You are the distance between the way things are and the way you want them to be"

Sunday, July 11, 2010


Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see-
Mark Twain

It's only been a day since i've been back in Melbourne but I think God is already testing me on whether I will stay loyal to what I agreed upon during Hillsong Conf. I wish I knew. Like the apostles said to the Lord, "Increase our faith!" ,please give my faith a boost.

Have been asking myself this question for 3 years now.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

time and time again

"Change hurts. It makes people insecure, confused, and angry. People want things to be the same as they've always been, because that makes life easier. But if you're a leader, you can't let your people hang on to the past." Rob Reiner

"Too many young people itch for what they want without scratching for it." Thomas Taylor

Friday, July 2, 2010

She's been given a second chance, a catalyst for change but all she seems to be giving is dissapointment. Dissapointment like always.